I admit, I used to wait for people to come back after they’ve left me. I waited for the day they will come back to me and apologize for leaving, admitting they made a mistake and that their life is miserable without me.
Now I know better. Now I know that I don’t deserve someone who leaves and comes back. I deserve to be with someone who doesn’t need to leave to understand what I mean to them.
I deserve someone who will never leave me when we hit a few bumps in the road. Someone who will never leave me when times get hard and there seems to be only darkness in front of us. I realized that I deserve to be with someone who will choose me every single day.
I deserve to be with someone who will never leave my side when I tell them my deepest secrets and fears. Someone who won’t leave after hearing the most embarrassing and painful things from my past that I swore not to tell anyone. I deserve someone who understands and never leaves no matter how hard and how dark it gets.
I deserve a partner who won’t turn cold when I tell them how much I love them and how much I want to be with them and make them happy. Because they make me happy. They make me feel things that I’ve never felt before. That’s why I want to be able to tell them that they mean the world to me without fearing that they will stop texting the next day.
I deserve someone who stays with me no matter what. Someone who is going to love me with the same depth and intensity as I love them.
I want a partner who will stay with me even if they excel in their career and make more money or buy a new fancy car. Someone who stays when they are living their best life, someone who can have anything they want and go anywhere they want but still choose me. They choose me because they know my worth. They know that what we have is special.
I deserve to be with someone who will never leave my side whenever things get rocky and difficult. Someone who stays with me regardless of life becoming overwhelming and me – being tired, confused, and lost. No relationship is all rainbows and sunshine. It can’t be only fun and exciting. That’s why I need someone who will be there for me during hard times, reminding me of my strength and the things I’ve survived.
Someone who realizes that I am perfectly capable of doing things on my own and fighting my own battles, but still wants to fight them with me.
Even though sometimes I still wish for one person to come back, I remind myself that instead of waiting for them, I should wish to meet someone that will never leave.
Someone who is just the type of person I deserve to be with.
Because the one who left once can leave again. Therefore, it’s better to wait for the one who never leaves than waiting for the person who left you to come back.