She is a strong-willed and passionate woman who doesn’t let anything affect her. The kind that wears a glistening smile and goes about her day, like nothing ever happened.
Yet, she goes through life sliding through all sorts of problems. Heartaches. Failed, dysfunctional relationships. Disappointments. Mistakes.
She is the woman who instantly cheers you up with her beautiful smile. The girl who brightens up your day and seems like she has an infinite amount of love for everything around her.
The woman who carries the burden of this world yet looks like she hasn’t got a single care on her mind.
People look at her and think she has it all. She’s got her life together. Because she’s strong and successful. But little do they know, that’s exactly what she wants them to see.
Yes, she appears to have a rock-solid heart and an I-can-do-it attitude, but that’s the side of her she decided to display.
She may seem unbreakable, but not a single person knows what it feels like inside her heart. As a matter of fact, there is not a single person who could ever endure the pain she’s carrying inside.
People see her during the day, all dressed up with her lovely promising smile when she has the energy to pretend. But no one knows how she looks and feels at night when after a long day of struggling to get it together, she finally lays on her bed and the nightmares start to unravel.
Because she’ll never let anyone catch her in her vulnerability.
She’ll always be there to lift your spirits when you’re feeling blue, but when she feels the painful urge to cry her heart out, she’ll just swallow her tears away until she has the chance to immerse in her solitude and let her pain wash over her.
Whenever the world is coming too hard on her and she’s on the verge of a damn breakdown, she deals with it by herself. She prefers to suffer in silence. Because she’s too afraid to show her flaws to the cruel, vile world. She’s too afraid to undress her soul naked and reveal it to others.
People describe her as the loudest and the most cheerful girl. They consider her as their ray of sunshine. The vibrant one. The ultimate problem-solver. They all come to her begging for a piece of solid advice about their issues.
Because she’s always the one who knows what to do. She is the one who always has her sh*t together.
So, she just nods and offers them advice about their first-world problems, even though the only thing she wants is to scream from the bottom of her lungs and tell them they don’t have a clue what real problems are.
But, she stops her urges and just listens. Because after all, she is a good friend.
After all, “none of my issues should be their concerns”, she says to herself.
And the second she comes home, all of the insecurities, fears and inner demons come out to torture her. As much as she prefers to be left alone, she hates those melancholic, midnight hours. Because that’s when they come to attack her.
So, you see… even though her shining armor appears to be indestructible, her painful emotions and loud insecurities have the power to destroy her.
Her insecurities meddle with her confidence, her fears kill her last hopes for finding happiness and her demons make her feel worthless. Useless. A nobody.
But what she doesn’t realize is that she’s much stronger than she knows. She is powerful. And she’s brave as hell!
Why, you ask?
She may be struggling, but every day she decides to just move forward. In spite of the sorrow. In spite of the intense heartache.
After everything, she still finds a way to get herself up in the morning, dig up the last bit of hope and smile through the pain.
She’s strong because she manages to survive the cruelty of this world and still stand on her own feet.
And that requires a great deal of courage.