It hurts. It hurts like hell.
It hurts to know that the one you love and you call your partner doesn’t share the same feelings as you. It hurts to even think about it, let alone be sure of it.
If I could describe that feeling, it would probably go like this. It’s a strange feeling. A very painful one. It feels as if there is someone before you, ripping your skin off, taking your heart out and throwing it away. Breaking it to pieces. It feels as if someone takes your entire joy and happiness out of your soul. And you are helpless. You can’t do anything.
But you know what feels even worse?
Not accepting the truth. Avoiding facing your emotions. Pretending things aren’t the way they are. Living a lie. Telling yourself those lies every single day so you can sleep calmer.
No, there’s nothing worse than that. Because that behavior only destroys your life. It forces you to hold onto people who do not deserve you. People who manipulate you. Play you in every way that they can. People who only take advantage of you, but have no real intention.
So, please. Get it through your head and stop living inside your bubble. Stop making excuses for their absence. Stop justifying their actions. Stop hurting yourself.
This is the truth. They do not want to be a part of your life.
They do not want to have anything serious with you.
They do not know how to love you.
They do not deserve you.
If they really cared for you the way you do for them, if they really thought of you as much as you think about them, if they really wanted to be there for you the way you try to be there for them, don’t you think they would be there?
Don’t you think that they would get out of their way to be with you?
It’s time to throw in the towel. If they are not there for you, to talk to you, to hold your hand, to love you, to cherish you, to simply look at you, then it’s more than clear that they don’t want to be a part of your world. Leave. Leave and don’t ever turn back. And please, make sure to always remember. You are not a bad person for needing real love. You are not a bad person for cutting them. You are not a bad person for wanting peace and happiness.
You deserve much more than what you’ve settled for. You deserve to have people that not only want to be there for you but choose to be there, every single day all over again. You deserve loyalty, commitment, honesty, and unconditional trust. You deserve to connect with another human being and feel how pure and divine love is.
So, go on… Change your direction and keep moving forward.
It hurts, I know. It hurts like hell. But that’s okay. It’s okay to be hurt.
I hope the pain teaches you everything you need to know about love. I hope it gives you the strength to carry on on your own and find what you are searching for.