I want to be completely happy and fulfilled on my own. I want to be so internally happy that no external source or heartbreak can make me lose it. I want to have that inner peace that can’t be disturbed if someone lets me down. I want to have my heart full of love and joy even when it’s not intertwined with someone else’s heart.
I want to be completely independent and self-sufficient. I don’t want to depend on someone else to bring me happiness and joy. I want to radiate happiness from within. I want to look at the world with rose-tinted glasses and see the beauty in everything. I want to light up someone’s world, but also, I want to be the brightest star in my own sky.
And if I lose a loved one, I don’t want my whole world to crash down. I want to be sad, I want to feel everything, but I don’t want to feel like I would not be able to continue living my life like I used to. I want to know that I’ll be okay in the end. That I will still be me.
I want to be in love, but I don’t want that love to define me. I don’t want to fall in love while sacrificing my happiness.
Rather, I want to radiate love. I want to be love. I want to love so much that no matter what happens I will always get back on my feet. I want to be sure that I won’t sink into depression. That I won’t feel rejected and empty if a loved one walks away.
I want to be comfortable with having someone holding the keys to my heart, but I won’t allow them to drop it. I won’t allow anyone to break me and my faith in love. I won’t give them the power to bring me down and shatter my faith.
Because deep down – I am complete. I am good. I am happy. I am independent. And I want to radiate with this joy forever.
I don’t want to ever again feel like I am not enough if someone decides to break up with me. I don’t want to fall into depression or feel lonely if someone abandons me. I want to be perfectly fine on my own.
That’s why my love is honest. When I love someone, I love them for who they are, not for what they make me feel. I don’t love them out of my own selfish reasons. I love them sincerely and genuinely.
And even though I will give them my heart and I will love them unconditionally, I will still know deep inside that I, on my own, am enough. That I am still a beautiful and exceptional human being, able to conquer the world alone.