As much as I want to convince myself that things will change and get easier through time, the truth is – they won’t.
I’m done devoting my time and energy to someone who wouldn’t devote a second to me. I’m done crying and wondering why my feelings were never returned.
I’m tired of fighting for someone who gave up on me long time ago.
I was ready to fight every battle just to keep you by my side. Because I truly loved you and I couldn’t imagine my life without you.
I’m tired of being your second option, your girlfriend of convenience, your favorite pastime despite all the efforts I’ve made.
All I wanted to do was to make you feel loved and happy. I wanted to be by your side when times got tough for you, hold your hand, alleviate your pain, and tell you: “Everything is going to be okay.”
I wanted to encourage you to pursue your highest goals and wildest dreams because I believed in you. I knew you could do anything you wanted.
And I needed the same thing. I needed someone to believe in me. I needed to feel that I was loved and appreciated by the person who meant the world to me.
I wanted you to see that my love for you was pure and honest. I wanted you to see that I was ready to walk through fire just to be with you.
But, you were blind to see me and deaf to hear me calling your name.
You were always too busy. You always had other more important things to do than spend time with me and ask how I felt or why I looked sad. You were there, but you were more like a ghost than a real human. You were anything but loving, compassionate, supportive, and devoted partner.
Oh, and before I forget – you were there, too, when you needed something from me. When you needed advice and someone to listen to your problems.
You were there when you needed me to boost your ego.
You convinced me that you loved me. That I was the only girl in your life. And I was naïve and foolish, and I believed you.
But, this time, I’m done. I’m telling you goodbye. I’m letting go of you.
I know this is a promise I’ve made to myself before, but this time I’m finally going to keep it.
I’m telling you –I’m done.
I’m done hoping that the strength of my love for you will make you see that I didn’t deserve your indifference, lies, and false promises.
Yes, I spent too much time accepting your apologies and lame excuses. I’m done putting up with your false promises and lies. That’s not what I signed up for.
I’ll no longer be hurt and feel unworthy. Because this time, I’m letting go of you for real.
I’m ready to let go of all the memories we have together. I’m ready to let go of all the laughs, hugs, kisses, and moments we had fun and I felt like I was important to you. But, now I know that all that was a HUGE LIE. A pleasant dream that never came true.
I’m saying goodbye to it all, pretending like nothing ever happened between us.
I’m saying goodbye because you can’t love someone who insists they don’t want to be loved. Because I can no longer beg for your attention and feel like I’m interrupting the silence between us every time I want to talk to you.
I’m saying goodbye because I realized that you can’t make someone love you, and that trying to do so only makes the pain grow.
I’m saying goodbye because while loving you and trying to make you happy, I forgot how to love myself.
But, I’m done.
I’m done watching you trample on my heart. I’m done letting you ruin my hopes and dreams.
Now, I know it’s the right time. Now, I’m saying goodbye for real because I owe myself that much.
Now, I’m fully accepting that you’re simply not the right one for me. You’re not the person meant to stay in my life.
And it may sound strange, but in some way, I’m grateful to you. Because what you did to me broke my heart, but also made me stronger. It made me more resilient and reminded me of my worth.
You know, some endings are tragic, but this ending is a good one. It’s the kind of ending which reminds me that I don’t have to settle for less than what I’m willing to put on the table.
I know who I am and I remember well who I was before you entered my life. I know my worth and what I deserve. And I deserve better.
I deserve to be with someone better than you. Someone who is going to make me his choice and love and appreciate me like I deserve. Someone whose soul matches mine.
I know beautiful things are coming my way and I’m ready to accept them. I’m ready to write a new chapter of my life.
Now, I know it’s time to finally tell you goodbye. Now, I’m letting go of you for real.