I watched you how easily you made promises and I watched you break them all with the same easiness. I watched you tell lies and expecting me to believe them. I watched you burn all the bridges that I’ve built for our relationship to turn into something real. I also watched you turn into the coldest person I know while I was there, giving you all the love and warmth that I had for you.
And I stayed. I stayed through all the bullshit. I always found strength in my heart to forgive you because I was terrified of letting you go.
I believed in ‘us’ so much that I forgot about myself. I held onto you for so long, wishing and hoping that things will change. I trusted you with all my heart because I believed that you loved me too and that this rough phase will soon pass, and we will be happy together.
But, you only made me watch you break promises. You only made me believe that love is just a temporary feeling and it passes away. You forced me to see that staying with a person who makes you wonder where you stand with them is a complete waste of time.
And now, this is me – finally giving up on you and choosing myself.
This is me giving up on you because I realized that I have no future with you and that I deserve to have someone who will happily plan a future with me. I am walking away from you because I am finally done walking on eggshells trying to make you happy while you were taking me for granted and treated me as if I were disposable.
I am finally done dealing with your selfishness and emotional immaturity. I am not giving you another chance this time.
This time, I will focus on loving myself and giving love only to those people who love me back and put an effort and energy into our relationship.
This is me, telling you that you are no longer the love of my life. This is me, telling you that you are not allowed back into my life because I won’t let you ruin my happiness again and mess with my life.
This is me, saying my final goodbye and this time I don’t look forward to seeing you. Our paths will cross here, and I will never look back.
And I know that this is the best decision I’ve ever made.
