Letting go of you was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced in my life. I don’t remember I’ve ever been through so much pain in my life before. My heart was aching. My soul was lost… And was no longer the person that I once used to be.
I remember the day when you left me. I remember it vividly because that was the moment when I lost myself. I lose every hope, every dream that I had about our future together. I needed a lot of time to overcome the pain inside of me. It took me days and nights of screaming, crying and living in constant agony to finally realize that the person who was with you was not me. It was someone who gave up on their life to please you and sacrificed their happiness to be loved by you.
And yet, I never got anything in return.
No matter how much I tried and no matter how much I loved you, you never cared enough to open your heart and let me in. I gave it all to you. I did everything for you. I accepted every little thing about you. I allowed you to become a big part of my life. I even molded myself to all of your wishes just because I believed that you are capable of love.
But now I finally get it. It wasn’t all for nothing.
For the first time in my life, I see things clearly. Losing you was painful, and it broke my heart to a thousand pieces, but it also shaped me into the person I am today.
Because of you, today I am stronger. You broke my heart and destroyed my whole world, but at the same time, you helped me learn one of the greatest life lessons. I finally found myself. I finally realized my worth. It took me a lot of sleepless nights, many disappointments and an endless stream of tears to finally open my eyes and see the reality for what it is.
But now I am here. And I am myself again.
A person who will never again let anyone take their love for granted.
A person who will never again let anyone manipulate them.
A person who knows their worth and will never accept anything less.
So, thank you. Thank you for entering my life. Thank you for disappointing me. Thank you for destroying my world. Thank you for taking everything away from me. Thank you for hurting me.
You helped me realize who I want to be in life. Because of you, I am no longer the person who lived to please everyone around them.
Because of you, I am stronger.