Paulo Coelho wrote that if you are brave to say goodbye to someone, life will reward you with a new hello.
This thought popped into my mind as I was thinking about my life and I felt a tremendous hole of emptiness inside me. I was feeling so bad for so long, that I was unable to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I was desperately trying to hold on to someone that I knew was toxic for me in a desperate need that he would change, that the love that we have for one another is stronger than anything. That the storm will pass, and the sun will rise again.
The reality was, I was afraid to let him go. I was scared that I won’t find anyone like them. I was lying to myself saying that what we two have is a true love. It wasn’t. It was a toxic love and I knew deep down that I needed to walk away from him as quickly as possible.
I knew that it would be extremely painful to let him go. I have invested so much love, time and energy into our connection that I just couldn’t accept failure. I am not a person who gives up on people, that’s what made it even more difficult.
But, I couldn’t stay with him any longer. It was not fair to me. My health and well-being were at stake. So, I decided to finally cut him out of my life and put an end to the agony.
I decided to face my fear and don’t let it paralyze me anymore. I embraced the life without him. I am single now, and I can tell you that I’ve never felt more peaceful in my life. I found happiness within me.
If you too feel like you have nothing left to hold on to – leave. Because staying in a relationship that doesn’t fulfill you emotionally is more painful than leaving.
Find the courage you need that I know you have inside you and leave. Don’t turn back. Move on from anyone or anything that no longer serve you. Listen to your intuition that has been telling you for a while that you need to leave.
Have the courage to start rebuilding your life again. Find your purpose. What makes you happy. And go for it.
You have to break loose to become true to yourself. And trust me, it will all be worth it in the end. (If you have the courage to step up for yourself.)
Image: Lukas Wawrzinek