There are people in this world who are hurting deeply on the inside. You’d often never even realize how desperate the people around you really feel. These people hide their true emotions so well from everyone to spare them from the pain.
If you are someone who’s suffering internally, you will be able to relate your struggles with others who are doing the same. These are 8 things that only people who are hiding their inner pain will understand.
1. You Keep Yourself Occupied
In your everyday life, you keep as active as you can. The people around you see you as productive and energetic, but really you’re just trying to distract yourself. Keeping busy is the only good way to forget about the pain that you feel.
2. You Try to Make the People Around You Smile
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”
― Robin Williams
You know how truly awful it is to be in constant despair and don’t want any of the people that you care about to ever feel the same as you do. You try your hardest to make people happy, make them smile, and make them laugh.
3. Overthinking Rules Your Life
You’re constantly stuck inside your own head. You have a million complicated, conflicting thoughts bombarding you at any given moment. Concentrating on the things going around you can often be extremely difficult for you because of this. It makes you distracted and mentally exhausted.
4. You Try to Act Positive
Your internal struggles have given you a bleak outlook on life. One of your worst fears is that people will realize how pessimistic you are. To compensate, you always act positive, sometimes overly so.
5. You Can Be a People-Pleaser
Saying no is an almost impossible task for you. In your own mind, you feel like a failure and a burden to the people around you. You don’t want to feel like more of a failure, so you try to keep everyone around you happy with you. You’ll do whatever people ask you to do and give them whatever they want from you.
6. Being Honest is Difficult for You
The person that you really are is someone that you hate. You’d give anything not to let people see the real you, for fear that they’ll hate you too. You hide your pain through lies. When someone asks how you are, you’ll never do more than say that you’re fine.
7. You Do What You Can to Numb the Pain
Almost everyone who finds themselves suffering internally has some vice to help them to cope. It could be gambling, drinking, drugs, reckless behavior or in some cases even harming yourself. As innocent or as serious as it may be for you, you still need something to help ease the pain that you feel.
8. When You’re Alone, You Break Down
You spend most of your time bottling up your emotions, hiding them from the outside world. When you’re finally alone, that’s when it all breaks loose. Being alone allows all your emotions to come pouring out like a waterfall. There’s often nothing you can do to keep them in.
It’s going to be a long road, but with time you will be able to find the light at the end of the tunnel. There’s hope that you will find happiness, but you first need to trust the people that you love and open up to them.
Letting people into your life will help you to rid yourself of this pain. You do not have to suffer alone. You deserve every happiness in the world.