Being alone has always been somehow difficult for me. I am an introvert, but I have never quite enjoyed being completely alone and being happy with myself without feeling lonely. I was hearing a voice inside my head that was constantly telling me that I will always be alone and that I will never find anyone to love me.
So, I did everything to escape from it. I was going out with friends, visiting my family, going to bed early… anything just to be surrounded by people. But I knew deep in my heart that I must face my fear. I decided to tackle the problem. First, I realized that the problem was my thoughts and after deep analysis, I found that the root of them was buried in my childhood.
I was a child that was always hungry for attention and love. I wanted to be around my parents and the people I love, but somehow I never got the love and validation from them that I needed. That’s why I spent the entire childhood feeling sad and lonely. I felt unworthy of love which is how I felt as an adult.
And I still feel alone at times, but now I am aware and I am healing myself. I knew that my inner child was hurt and I needed to end the suffering.
I surrounded myself with people who love me and care for me. I was constantly repeating to myself that I am worthy of love, that I am lovable, and that I am not alone. That I will never be. That solitude doesn’t equal loneliness.
And the words that were repeating in my head… those hurtful words stopped being so loud. And after a while, they weren’t there. I did it. And I am sharing this personal story to remind you that you can do it too. You can heal yourself.
You can fight for yourself by getting connected to your inner self. It hurts, but it is worth it.
And once you do it, you will finally be free.