Thank You For Breaking Me – You Showed Me My Worth And What I Deserve

Thank you for treating me the way you did. It showed me how I don’t want to be treated. It also showed me how I deserve to be treated. How everyone deserves to be treated.

I don’t deserve someone who will make fun out of my flaws and tell me how they are doing it out of love. I deserve someone who will make me feel good about myself. Someone who will love me for everything that I am and who won’t try to change me.

I don’t deserve to be with someone who makes me cry. I don’t deserve to cry myself to sleep waiting for a call or a message. I deserve someone who will wipe my tears away and make everything better. I don’t deserve to be constantly doubting my relationship. I deserve to know where I stand with my person. And because of this, I want to thank you. 

Thank you for not being there when I needed you. You showed me that you are not there to stay. And I need the one who stays.

Thank you for cheating on me. Now I know that it was never my fault. Thank you for leaving me for the other person. I dodged a bullet there. You have unknowingly saved me from many years of pain.

I should also say ‘Thank you’ for not loving me. Because now I learned how to love myself. Yes, I love my scars, they all tell a story with only one ending – that I’ve survived. I love my stretch marks, my smile, my lines, my weird toes. I love everything about my “imperfect” body.

And finally, thank you for being the worst thing that has ever happened to me. Now I know how to stand up for myself.

Thank you for showing me what a toxic relationship looks like so that I can never enter into one again. Thank you for shattering my heart to tiny bits, so that I could learn to pick all the broken pieces of me and love them anyway.

I was ashamed for a very long time. I just couldn’t admit to myself or anyone that I allowed you to do what you did to me. I was ashamed to tell my friends and my family that I am still in a relationship with you after everything you’ve put me through.

But luckily, not anymore.

Because you have saved me from me. When you broke the relationship, you did what I wished for but didn’t have the courage to do it. And yes, it hurt. But that pain is nothing compared to all the lessons I learned along the way.

I’ve turned the pain into power and I’ve become a better me. So, thank you. You have saved me from me. 

 

I am currently writing my first book titled “Inside The Narcissist’s Psyche: His Ability To Make Victims Stay With Him Even Though The Pain They’re Feeling Is Unbearable.” If you are interested to take a glimpse at it, follow this link and tell us whether you like the subject so that we can send you a free chapter after we publish it.

Mary Wright

Written by Mary Wright

Mary writes from the heart, unafraid to dive into the deepest human emotions. Her essays and short stories transform ordinary moments into literature that lingers.

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