I spent so long trying to get your attention. More than anything I just wanted you to love me the way that I loved you. When it came down to it, I did everything that I possibly could to make that happen. After so many failed attempts at wooing you, I finally realized that it was pointless.
Eventually, I got tired of wasting all of my energy on someone who would never feel the same way as I do. So, I’m done chasing you, but that doesn’t mean I’m done loving you.
Maybe I Was Too Eager
I always sent the first text just because I wanted to talk to you so badly. If you didn’t reply, I’d even double text and wait by my phone until you answered. It probably seemed like I was completely desperate, but that’s what love does to you.
When I knew I was going t see you, I dressed nicely and always put on that perfume I know you like. I wanted you to notice me and think that I was beautiful. If you did, then maybe you’d think that I was worth your time. It was so much effort, but I’d still invite you to hang out whenever I could. I honestly didn’t care if it would take me two hours to get ready, I just wanted to be with you.
I’m not blind, I know how it looked. It looked like I was just too eager to be with you. It looked like I was just some silly, pathetic girl who would do anything to gain your affection. Quite honestly, all of that is probably true.
You Gave Nothing in Return
In retrospect, I know now that I should’ve taken the hint a long time ago. You just weren’t interested in me, but I couldn’t accept that. Doing so would completely break my heart in two. So, I just carried on, blind to what was really happening.
I wanted you so badly that I couldn’t see that you saw me as nothing more than a friend.
Even when you didn’t text me back or skipped out on our plans countless times, I kept trying. I kept pushing, clawing at any shred of hope left that you might love me one day. Although you never gave me any reason to think that you were interested, I just kept fighting a losing battle for you.
I’m Still Not Over You
My feelings for you are just as strong as ever. Whenever I get a text from you, I feel my heart racing and all I want to do is text you for hours on end. Being with you makes me the happiest I’ve ever been. Despite that, that joy is followed by an immediate crash whenever I need to see you leave again.
The thing is, I’m not over you and I don’t think I ever will be. In spite of that, I know that we’re just not meant for each other. Even if I did one day manage to get the love from you I’ve always wanted, I know that I wouldn’t be your first choice. I would always be the girl who you could fall back on, and that’s not who I want to be.
I’ve finally decided that I’m done chasing you. Most of all, I’m done chasing my fantasy of you. It’s time for me to let go of you and learn how to love myself instead. Perhaps one day I’ll find someone who makes me forget all about you. Until then, you will always have a special place in my heart.
To the person reading this who’s chasing after someone who doesn’t feel the same way, I know it’s hard but you need to let them go. Learn to respect yourself enough to move on from them and allow yourself to grow. Trust me, you will be happier in the long run.