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I Don’t Want To Settle For ‘Almost’. I Need True, Everlasting Love

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I Don’t Want To Settle For Almost. I Need True, Everlasting Love

Here I am once again.

A river of tears is flowing down my cheek. My mind is absent. My heart aches for your presence. My soul is floating somewhere outside of me. The only thing I feel is emptiness. Nothingness.

I have a hole inside of me.

I know that I must let go of you, and I know that distancing myself from everything that reminds me of you is for my own good, but it is too damn hard.

I miss you. I miss what we once were. I miss everything we once went through.

I know what we were. You were someone who never bothered to give a label to what we had. And I… I was a woman who fell for you. A fool in love. A silly girl who chose to believe in you and settle for less.

I spent my mornings with you by my side. I ended my days with your warm kisses on my forehead. Each and every minute of the day was filled with your presence. You became a big part of my life. And even when I was the busiest, I still found time to come and see you, if only for an hour.

And then all of a sudden, everything that I held dear collapsed. Everything that we were faded away. The future that I looked forward to was no longer there.

I loved you more than I’ve ever loved anyone else in my life. I invested myself both emotionally and mentally in the relationship. I gave you the key to my world. I welcomed you with an open embrace. I let my guard down for you. I revealed my deepest secrets to you. I told you all about my dreams. I showed you every scar on my soul. I shared my fears and insecurities with you.

I gave you all… and you broke me. You watched me as I fell for you knowing that you could never love me the way I did. And instead of being a man and telling the truth, you chose to have me wrapped around your finger until you get bored of me. You chose to take advantage of me.

I Don’t Want To Settle For Almost. I Need True, Everlasting Love

But this is it… I cannot do this anymore.

I cannot keep torturing myself with the memory of you.

I am letting you go, and I am moving on. I know it will be hard for me to actually do this, but I swear to you, I will give all of my efforts to erase every memory we had and find myself again.

There was a time when I was so desperate to feel your touch that I would have done anything to have you near me. But now… Now I know…

I don’t ever want to settle for ‘almost’. I’m done accepting half-assed things. I have no strength to play games with people who aren’t brave enough to open their hearts and love truly.

I deserve better. I deserve to feel love in all its splendor. I deserve to wake up next to a man who wouldn’t hesitate to tell me how he feels about me. I deserve happiness.

And I promise you, I won’t stop until I find it.

Stephanie Reeds

A professional writer with many years of experience in the fields of psychology, human relationships, science, and spirituality.
Stephanie Reeds