“So it’s not going to be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re going to have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day. You and me…every day.” – Nicholas Sparks
Whoever he might be, I look forward to meeting him. However, before he decides to be with me I will warn him that I don’t half-ass anything in my life, love especially.
When I love, I love hard. I love with all my being. I love like there is no tomorrow.
So, I will tell him that it is not going to be easy… Because I am not easy to love. Because for me, love is the sole purpose of life.
That’s why I am guarded. I have trust issues, and I have difficulties letting someone in. I want him to know that this has nothing to do with him, and everything to do with the mistakes of my past.
However, even the worst heartbreak won’t ever make me love any less deep. When I love, I love hard.
I understand that it is going to be very hard and we both will have to work at it.
I may try to test his love for me in a million ways. I must see whether he is worthy of the love that I am about to give him. He might test me also.
I firmly believe that in a relationship, the thing that matters the most is that both partners love each other equally. Otherwise, it is always going to be pain involved.
I also know that getting hurt is part of the process of loving someone and I am okay with that. I am willing to work for the relationship that I know I deserve. I am willing to take chances and get the love I want.
And I want to do all that… I am not scared of the pain. I will always give my best to love him the right way because when I want someone, I want all of him. Every day. Forever.
And I can promise him that it will all be worth it in the end. Because I have the power to change his life in the most beautiful way possible.
Image: Jacqueline Caprino
