I have recently started seeing a guy and everything was perfect before this entire corona pandemic started happening. I fell in love with him like when I was a teenager, falling in love with the most popular guy in school. The mere thought of him was giving me butterflies in the stomach and for a moment the world was no longer a dark place, but a rosy place filled with love, happiness, and hope.
And then, the corona came and all I wanted was to spend the quarantine with him but he rejected my proposal. And even though this is a sensible decision on his part, I was deeply hurt. Because all I have ever wanted for us was to get closer and spend more time together, and I realized he didn’t feel the same for me. And that hurt like a knife. And in the quarantine, I felt more alone than ever.
I was angry at myself for feeling this way. Because I thought of myself as a strong, independent, smart, and spiritually enlightened individual and now I was crumbling down over some guy. I felt totally lost and outside of myself. I was powerless and unable to handle the situation I was in.
So, I decided to tell him that I couldn’t talk to him anymore. Then, I cut him out of my life. And while it was painfully hard, I know I did the right thing. After a while, I began to feel better because I realized that I was not wrong for loving someone who didn’t love me back. There is nothing wrong with following your heart and opening yourself to someone. After all, rejection is a part of life. It means that at least we are trying.
Some people will like us, some won’t. What matters is that we shouldn’t feel like something is wrong with us. Rejection means we have tried. That we are brave and strong to go after the things we want.
Or put in the words of Osho, “Courage is risking the known for the unknown, the familiar for the unfamiliar, the comfortable for the uncomfortable arduous pilgrimage to some unknown destination. One never knows whether one will be able to make it or not. It is a gambling, but only the gamblers know what life is.”
