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I Am Sorry I Distanced Myself From You Because Of My Anxiety

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I am sorry it is so difficult for me to agree to meet up. I am sorry about how silent I am during our conversations. I am sorry I always leave parties early. I am sorry sometimes I am a bad company. I am sorry it takes me a long to answer your calls and texts. I am sorry my energy drains so quickly that I always need to isolate myself to recharge. I am sorry I am not spending more time with you and the other people I love.

I am also sorry for all the times I let you down when you needed me. I am sorry for every canceled plan. I am sorry for all the excuses and the white lies I told you to get out of certain social situations. And I really hope you know that the reason for this all is my anxiety. I hope you know, me distancing from you has nothing to do with you and my love for you but it has everything to do with my unshakeable anxiety.

I love you. I care about you. I love spending time with you. I love having you around. But, please know that sometimes my anxiety gets the best of me and then it is extremely hard for me to be with anyone.

I know that I may seem heartless at times because of my fear of rejection. If I don’t text you or call you it is not because I have forgotten you, but it is because I fear you won’t reply or answer. I also avoid inviting you to my home because my anxiety makes me scared that you don’t want to come and that you will come up with a silly excuse just to avoid me.

Sorry for ever making you feel like you were not important. Sorry for making you believe that I didn’t care about our friendship at all. I do. In fact, I care so much, and I love you so much that it makes me overwhelmed and then my anxiety kicks in.

I am sorry. I am sorry for all the times my anxiety has put a wall between us. I have never forgotten you. You are always in my heart. I love you. And I need your love and friendship. It’s just it gets difficult to say all this to you because my anxiety makes me numb and scared.

I am sorry. I am sorry…

I am sorry about all those times I was a shitty friend to you. I am sorry I ignored you. I am sorry I disappeared for months without sending you a text and letting you know what is happening with me.

You deserve so much better than me. You deserve loyalty and honesty and stability. I am not that person right now, but I am working to better myself. I am fighting my anxiety. Because I never again want to be separated from a wonderful person like you.

Mary Wright

Mary Wright is a professional writer with more than 10 years of incessant practice. Her topics of interest gravitate around the fields of the human mind and the interpersonal relationships of people. If you have a general question or comment please fill out the form below and we will get back to you as soon as possible. https://thepowerofsilence.co/contact-us/
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