I don’t want calm seas. I don’t want dead silence. I don’t want smooth sailing.
I need love. I need passion. Sizzling, ferocious, untameable passion. Intense, powerful, genuine emotions. Love that will consume every part of my body and soul.
If there’s anything that makes me really sad nowadays, that’s the comfort zone people used to live in. The lack of will to fight for something worthwhile. The lack of initiative to wait for the things you truly deserve.
Personally, I would never allow myself to engage in a relationship with someone who feels comfortable and fine with me.
I’ve said it before and I will say it again.
I’m not the woman you could settle for. I’ll never be the one who’ll say yes to spending my life with someone who considers me just “marriage material”, a procreating machine or just a useful housewife.
I will never be happy with a half-assed love.
I’m sorry but I am raised to believe in true, genuine love. I know what it feels like. I’ve felt it deep inside my soul. I’ve experienced its glory in every possible dimension.
So, I’ve promised myself. When it comes to love, I won’t accept anything less than everything.
I want it all and I’m not afraid to say it, even shout it from the rooftops.
You’ll never satisfy my need for love with just a piece of your heart. You’ll never satisfy me with a tiny bit of your attention.
Most importantly, we’ll never make it if it doesn’t feel right. If there’s no chemistry, no magic, no butterflies, no fire, it’s not going to work.
And even if we somehow do make it, we’ll always know that we chose to settle in instead of finding the love we deserve.
If you aren’t head over heels in love with me, please, leave me. If we aren’t madly, deeply, and genuinely in love with each other, then what are we doing?
Don’t you think that we both deserve a clear shot at love?
It takes a real courage to say no to settling in, and it takes genuine bravery to open your heart and wait for the real thing to strike you.
And, sometimes it’s scary. I know that.
But, there’s nothing more amazing and enthralling than experiencing true love. There’s nothing more powerful and absorbing than opening your own heart to the possibility of real love.
Love is free-flowing. You can’t force it to happen. You can’t create magic overnight. You just can’t force the matters of the heart. The more you push, the more miserable and depressed we’ll end up.
And that is something I won’t allow to happen.
I have one life. And, I have a limited time on this planet. So, trust me when I say that I will make it worthwhile.
I won’t feel bad about myself for the sake of settling in. I won’t allow suppressing my hopes and dreams for a better future. I won’t accept a lazy, shallow relationship that will only make my life a predictable mess.
I want to be truly desired. I want you to look me in the eyes and burn with a desire to kiss me. I want to feel you electrifying touch on my soft, aroused skin. I want to feel your fiery passion. I want you to love me from the very depths of your heart.
So, you either love me like you mean it or watch me leave.
Because I will never be the women you could settle for.
Image:Nicholas Andrew
