I know that I am guilty of getting attached to people too quickly. That’s the reason why I have trouble walking away from those who matter to me.
The thing is, I am a fighter. I fight for those that I love. And I never, never give up on them without previously trying everything that is in my power to solve whatever the problem is.
I don’t give up on people easily. Especially not on those who have a special place in my heart. If you hurt me, my soft heart will try to see your point of view and accept your apology. Sometimes, I am too nice, and I give out way too many chances. Because I believe in the good in people.
If I decide to leave you, it is because something really big must’ve happened. You must have hurt me so deep and did something so unforgivable that made me leave you. Otherwise, I would have fought for you. I would have tried to make things okay.
Because I am a woman who is always willing to put an effort in everything she does. I am not ungrateful. I am not lazy. When I love someone, I do everything for that person. I give my all. I am extremely forgiving, so my decision to cut someone out of my life is something which doesn’t happen much often.
If I make a decision to walk away from you, please don’t make it harder than it is. Don’t beg me to stay or guilt trip me. Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things that I had to do and probably I would still question myself whether I made the right decision. (Maybe I was too dramatic?)
I am not someone who gives up easily in life, especially not when it comes to people who mean the world to me. But, there come times in life when I have to cut toxic people out of my life because their presence is harmful to my well-being.
I need to leave you because I need to think of myself and my needs for a change. I decided to not let myself get walked over ever again. I cannot let you treat me as a secondary option when you have always been my priority.
I give my heart and soul to those I love, but I will not let them take advantage of me ever again. If all you bring is heartache, anxiety, pain, and stress into my life, then I don’t need you in my life. Simple as that. I am free to be selective of people with whom I surround myself. I am free to decide what’s the best for me.
Believe me, the last thing I want to do is leave someone I love behind. This is one of the hardest decisions for me. It may hurt like hell but sometimes I have no other choice but to choose a brighter future for myself.
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