Thank you for treating me the way you did. It showed me how I don’t want to be treated. It also showed me how I deserve to be treated. How everyone deserves to be treated.
I don’t deserve someone who will make fun out of my flaws and tell me how they are doing it out of love. I deserve someone who will make me feel good about myself. Someone who will love me for everything that I am and who won’t try to change me.
I don’t deserve to be with someone who makes me cry. I deserve someone who will wipe my tears away and make everything better.
Thank you for not being there when I needed you. You showed me that you are not there to stay. And I need the one who stays.
Thank you for cheating on me. Now I know that it was never my fault. Thank you for leaving me for the other person. I dodged a bullet there. You have unknowingly saved me from many years of pain.
I should also say ‘Thank you’ for not loving me. Because now I learned how to love myself. Yes, I love my scars, they all tell a story with only one ending – that I’ve survived. I love my stretch marks, my smile, my weird toes. I love everything about my “imperfect” body.
And finally, thank you for being the worst thing that has ever happened to me. Now I know how to stand up for myself.
Thank you for showing me what a toxic relationship looks like so that I can never enter into one again. Thank you for shattering my heart to tiny bits, so that I could learn to pick all the broken pieces of me and love them anyway.
I admit I was ashamed for a very long time. I just couldn’t admit to myself or anyone that I allowed you to do what you did to me. I was ashamed to tell my friends and family that I am still in a relationship with you after everything you’ve put me through.
But luckily, not anymore.
Because you have saved me from me. When you broke the relationship, you did what I wished for but couldn’t do it. And yes, it hurt. But that pain is nothing compared to all the lessons I learned along the way.
I’ve turned the pain into power and I’ve become a better me.